Here in Missouri, we have an unfortunately high population of undesirable
eight legged creatures, namely spiders. What is one of my all time worst
fears? Yep, spiders. One in particular that I despise is the wolf spider. It
is big, hairy, fast, and yes, poisonous. How poisonous? I'm not really sure.
My husband looked them up on the internet and read to "seek medical advice/
help if bitten" by a wolf spider. Why am I writing about this?
The other day, while my husband was at work, my three year old ran to the
bathroom to go "potty," and not long after I heard deafening, horrified screams
from the direction of the bathroom. I rushed to see what had happened. Through
streams of tears, my daughter said "Spider, Mommy, spider!"
I looked in the direction she was pointing and sure enough there was the eight
legged beast, quickly darting from here to there and back again. For a second
I was frozen, unsure how to proceed, but my daughter's continued screams
snapped me back to reality, and I raced to obtain a good instrument with which
to crush the intruder. My husbands heavy dress shoe was perfect - no groves in
the sole where the hairy arachnid might escape it's fate. Upon my return, the
spider had ducked inside the vent cover, which thankfully was closed. I picked up
the vent and turned it upside down. As soon as the spider resurfaced, I utilized
the shoe, making sure there were no signs of life.
Afterwards, I cleaned up the floor and shoe sole with a disinfectant wipe,
and then turned to my little cherub, who was still frozen on the toilet.
"You were brave."
She looked at me with red, puffy eyes. "I was?"
"Yes," I assured her. "You were brave even though you were scared."
A big smile broke through the previously concerned look. "You were
brave too, Mom."
Thankfully, I had been, probably the maternal instincts kicking in. Later
that evening, it was a different story. I was working on a project, sitting on
the couch, when in my peripheral vision, I noticed a dark blur lurking on
the wall. Yes, it was another spider, identical to the one from earlier in the
day. Again I went into action, leaving a smear on the wall. Enough of the
thorax was left for my husband to identify the type of spider. It was then he
informed me it was a wolf spider. I panicked. There had been two in one
day and would probably be more.
Jason noticed my look of horror. "They're not poisonous."
"Oh yes, they are!" I countered.
To validate his position, he google the wolf spider, but instead affirmed my
statement to be true. My mind raced with fearful thoughts of poisonous creepy
things crawling in my and the children's beds at night. Jason then did an online
search for scripture verses to counter one's fear. It was effective. It can be
hard to release one's fear to the Lord, having to trust that He will protect you
from even the tiniest sources of fear and anxiety. However once you do,
you'll find a place of serenity and rest.
So whether your concerned about eight legged creepy crawlers, revising
your work in progress, putting together your book proposal, or all of the above,
rest in the knowledge that God cares for you and desires victory for you in all
areas of your life. I was able to sleep that night, thanks mostly to the following
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and
cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and
of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control."
2 Timothy 1:7, Amplified version